Day Nineteen

Day 19 of 43--I am at 192.0 today.  I took a little setback.  I was at 190.8 and I went on a group outing yesterday--let's just say I ate things I wasn't supposed to..lots of things.  I was afraid I would put on 5 lbs overnight after reading other blogs, but to my surprise it was 1.2 lbs.  I skipped my injection last night so it wouldn't be negated, but right back on track today with diet and injection.  Do I feel guilty--yes, but I think it made me realize how little I can really eat now and what a binge does to my body.  I thought I would eat a lot of everything.  I couldn't.  I could only get a couple of bites of each thing down (whew!  That's a good thing, or I WOULD HAVE gained 5 lbs or more.) Then came the insulin crash a few hours later.  I couldn't stay awake on the way home (I wasn't driving, LOL).  Having said all that, now I wonder what my next 2 load days are going to be like--I had already mapped out my plans on what/where I'd eat for the days.  Seems like they will NEVER get here.  I've still got several days of this way of eating, then low carb (Atkins induction diet for 6 weeks), THEN my load days.  I'm on day 19 of 43--almost 1/2 way there!

Tomorrow is Easter.  Although I'll see a lot of GOOD things to eat, I will brown bag my lunch and turn my head when it comes dessert time (I LOVE sweets).  I will also pray tonight that God will help me stay strong.

Inches?  I'd lost 6 as of 4/18/11.

I have some really weird dimpling and sunken places in my fat (esp. legs, stomach, and one arm).  I've read elsewhere that this is where I've burned the most fat, and the body is trying to reshape itself.  It looks a little strange, right now, however.

Oh, BTW--I'm no longer starving.  In fact, I have to remind myself to eat some days, because I hardly ever feel hunger.
Signing off--